what happen to me last night is a nightmare. hey, if it's you don't know shit then suddenly someone post on you fb. saying this shit to you. ' hye, your nose like a pig '
we fight. over what? over small thing. ugh! i hate fighting with you. you the last person on earth that i doesn't want to fight with. but we both fight.
i'm sorry. but, when i'm doing something. i ignore my phone. that's me sweetheart. when i'm busy with something and i said just text. i hope you wait it with patient. thats you.
this is about someone that i might hurt his feelings. i'm sorry. but, you've said that your smile nothing to do with me. i'm really pissed off dear. i hope your are playing with my anger. everyone smile, even you even my friends is matter for me.
they anger, i'm trying to make them happy. it's doesn't fun when your friends including yourself unhappy. if everyone unhappy, who gonna make this world fun, cheerful n colourful? only smile n laugh can do that.
if you mad with someone, don't show it off. you are making them worst. if you, i treat you the same way. i mad with someone and i showed to my friends? how you and others gonna feel?
i know i'm wrong. because i'm only trying to tease you. not making you mad o something. haih-.-
do know what to say. xcept that ' I'M SOOORRYYY. '
i just can't stand anymore. just now, a few minutes past. my brother ask me this type of question. 'kakak x kawan agik nan abg ya ka?' and then i answered 'kawan kin. p, nya dha x rapat nan kakak. so, what for kakak mrapatkan drik kakak nan nya. tnyak kaba o wall to wall nan nya gik xda eply. so?'
isn't my fault that my brother asked me that type of questing. isn't my fault that him doesn't hang out with my brother. ithink my brother miss him. like he going to 'K', evryday he asked me the same question. 'bila abg ya datang miri? bila abg ya mok agak umah?' i asked my brother ' apahal tak nyak bila pa suma? tak rindu abg ya ka? lak kakak mcz mun xkol . k? ' den my brother says back to me 'aok. rindu. lamak dha xda abg ya datang umah. men game sama nan abg. ya abg crik abg ya.'
i remembered every single thing my brother said about him. haih -.- isn't my fault that he n my brother no close anymore? if it is, come and hang out with him. don't blame him. and don't be an excuse my mom doesn't let him hang out at her place.
sometimes my mom asked ' nie org ya? lamak xda lepak nan wazif? pahal ktak n org ya? da pa2 masalah ka?'
well, like my kazen says to me 'diam'. it's better that way. better let him go. i'm trying to find a new big brother for wazif.
that's what i need to spit out. i just can't hold anymore. bcause, there's no replacement for a guy that good listener. and thanks. in me, there's no trust anymore. i feel like this is the second time that i felt, my trust was to play around. crying isn't the solution. you just being the guy that i met during the time that i sent back your usb cabel. and your advice 'TENANG AJAK'. thanks a lot. i appriciate what you told me. but, that isn't the advice that i would like to hear.
so thanks. my trust to you n my last fren was 110%. and what happen. either of you guys there for me. but, when you guys, i'm there. not all the time. but, i'm there for you guys. might my advice doesn't work. but atleast, i'm there.
haih-.- i just need someone that i really can trust. bcause my trust to someone is hard. and you n my fren i've known for many yrs. that's y i trust you.
what a HOT day. a day that hot can easily make make piss off. JEEZ!! don't know what to say. today i think i'm going to so so so emotional. firstly, my brother fight with me cuz of this STUPID lappy. haih -.-
i said wait for awhile. i think i wanna do something bad. like hit someone, curse someone. cuz in my heart, i don know why or what. i feel like angry is coming up. i dont know why an what happen to me. if this is cause of the weather, i don think so. i think someone is pissing me off.
secondly, i'm sad. cuz he sad. cuz my mom wanna buy the rm100 ticket and i can't be with him by the time the konsert started. haih -.-
what have i become. im so so angry. im so so so sad. even a few days, im so tired even though i sleep early. i think im gonna cry. like cry cry. crying like loosing someone.
SHIT!! i don really understand my own feeling. lastly, i'm sleepy. but my homework isn't finished. :(
haih. mcm2 jak eyh. coba la ku ekot klas ya. hurm. i need my beauty sleep. like A.S.A.P!!
you've change sweetheart. i might change. i might change cuz i really can't face the truth. the truth is you've move on. don't even look back.
you've change. you not the person that i use to cry in front of you face. you are not the person that really give the good advice. you are the person that i comfortable to talk. you are not him anymore. i don't know why, i might mising him. i hate the new you. i hate the new me. i hate what change. i hate that time pass so fast. i hate the time we've meet, you look so sweet. i hate the time that you says 'i love you' to me.
TO BE CONTINUED . . . . . . . .
I WANNA CRY!!!!!!
cyezly, feels like my tears gonna drop just a small thing. i think he mad with me. cus he read about me n daydek. it was nothing. IT JUST PIECE OF SHYT. nothing to be jealous o angry. but, i think i made my mistake. i think i always he mad.
we did it again. haha. its all the same. wasn't planning. but different person. me, cassie, auf, naza n nas. haha. my mother sent me to the school. but, i walked to cassie's house. it's nearby also. so, i walked there alone. :D
naza text me, ask wether me n cassie ody at school or not. something like dat. haha. about 7 something i text naza again cuz he said auf pick me n cassie at cassie's home. i text him wat time he pick us up. that time, cassie still in bed. hehe. i text naza, but did't reply. so i ask cassie to take bath.
after a few minutes cassie dress up to get ready, naza text me that they ody in front of cassie's house. so, me n cassie went out put our shoes on. get in the car. auf said, where next. so i tell them that teera will text me if the text book give to us.
cassie was so so hungry, we went to drive-tru mcdonald. it was so far from school. imagine we from peysau to permy. we at petronas permy, suddenly teera text me that the text book will be given to us. but, we omoz at mcd. naza said, ask a favour from dausto get us our text book. cuz we might be a bit late. haha.
naza was sleeping, we reach drive-tru mcd. we ask naza to order, but we keep on laughing cuz naza face was so blur. haha. den, it was our lucky day. the waiter doesnt listen carefully, she ask us again. we ask only one burger. so we pay for only one. but, when we move a little to take the burger it have two gurgers inside the plastic bag. haha.
so we sahred among us. auf driving the car, nas nest to him. at the back, cas, me inthe middle n naza. hehe. we hurry up to school. :D
we passed the security like we didnt do anything wrong. haha. what a day. a day that we can't do when we started working. i wish i can turn back time. hehe. i'm gonna miss time that me n my frens had together.
sakit hati bila orang nok dekat nan kta jdy pnghubung nan orang lain. mok apa2, mesty d pdh nan orang nok dekat nan kta. bila kta x layan cdak, knak anok LAWA, SOMBONG. apa cerrrr?
last night. i slept around 11 o'clock. i think its still early? rite? hehe. at the afternoon i already sleep around 4 somthing. i woke up around 7. haha. i dunno what happen to me. i was so tired. i didnt know what the hell i was doing making tired.
woke up. eat. went out for awhile.thet go back home. i feel so sleepy. haha.
at night i sleep. around 2 something i wake up cus i feel someone is disturbing me. it's 2 o'clock n the morning? who will wake up at that moment at my home? no one. so, i so sleept. i don care. all i know is that i wanna sleep. then, i wake up again at 4 something. i dunno why. my feeling was clam. feels like i being watch by someone. huhu. :D
about 6 something. wake up again. this tyme, seriously i'm gonna pissed off. i dunno what the heck is happen. but cyesly, i need my beauty slepp. haha. sleep again. woke up again at 8 somthing omoz 9 o'clock.
i love sleep. :D
DO NOT DISTURB ME WHEN I AM SLEEPING. aite? :)
that day was my most remembered moment. :) why? because me, naza, auf, afnan, cassie n daus escape from school. sort of. :)
well, out teacher is so bzy. me, cassie, naza, auf n daus were chit-chat. afnan knock to door class door. he ask to see naza. i was so bzybody what's happen. they planning to go out after 6th period. haha. it was s funny. bcause naza was covering us, his action going out from the class room caught by our bm's teacher. haha
pity for him. me, cassie, auf n daus went first. when we look back naza was running towards us. haha. what a day. auf drove his mom's car. afnan was late. so we have to wait for him. after picking up afnan, our main idea going to kuala. but, that day was so FUCKING HOT. so, there was a beach at new home estate.
we went there. n chill out. it was so PEACEFUL. me, afnan n daus shout so loud makes our throat hurt. haha. it was so fun. we all plan, after recess went out for picnic. but, auf didnt use car the next day. luckily, naza mom didnt care if we hanging out at his place.
it was so fun. it was my most memorable adventure. :D
heylow. i'm not using my old blog. cuz, in the blog i let my anger tru me.
this is me. NEW BLOG, NEW ME. aite? i hope ue guys happy or enjoy reading my blog. :)
anything mistake, i hope ue all 4give.
