bunkface vs hujan

yesterday was the day that me, dba and zul went to imperial hotel for hi-tea. actually we were excited to see them not eating. haha. well, the hi-tea just only for those who buy the ticket for rm100. so, me, dba n zul buy the ticket just to see them. 


aww. i love SAM!! hehe. well, it should be at 3 p.m and ag coco write in twitter said that they just arrived at 2.30 something. and the hi-tea started at 4 p.m. while we are waiting for them to come, this 5 brunien girls were laughing as the room were theirs. OMG!! haha


and the fun part is, the hi-tea is simple. so, me and dba using tee shirt, skinny jeans, bag and our fippers. but those girls looking and like laughing at us. so, like i freaking care. haha. i'm there just to see the artist. not for free show. :) using 5 inch heels. this is indiependent band. haha. 

at night, me, beb, zul n dba went there by beb's car. and what spoiling is that the weather is raining. hish. the show started with karakoma from brunie. they perform for opening. they song were fantastic and hard core i guess.

about 10 p.m the real show started. and we started jumping, dancing, screaming and also laughing. haha. at the same time we met our new head banging friends. haha. we were dancing and screaming. haha. it was the most tired day of my life. haha.


everyone see us dancing like what. and the guys some of the guys i know. haha. they also dancing and make the consert more happening. haha. since we started dancing around, the others followed. :)


well, long story short. yesterday was the happiest day ever. i'm enjoying myself and not really thinking what had happen last last night or today. :) 

THE END

16/12/2010

for today story. it'm my sadness & my loneliest day ever. i feel like crying. but i can't. i just have to push myself away from distraction. i just have to. if not, i'll keep crying and crying. don't why or what. i don't know what i've done. i don't know what i say to him. 


but for today. i text him 3 times. and none of it were replied by him. i just don't know. i just can't. what i can do right now, writing this blog and cried. i'm no one to him i think. it just suddenly drop. my guts says that he's gonna leave me. and my brain tell me the same. 


i just keep crying and crying. i have no else to go. fortunate for me, i'm open my facebook and i caught my see on this particular word. 'scandal'. it making my day greater and greater. i feel like shout. i feel like i wanna smoke. i feel like i just wanna runaway from this whole mess. 


unfortunate for him, i deactivate my account quietly. i just don't know what the heck am i doing. i sitting there looking at my phone waited for him to text me. i don't know what i've done. seriously. but not even one he replied. what i did to him must be big that's why he treated  the that way.


i just felt i'm being left alone. i'm starting to trust him like i used to trust my friends and my parents. but what he did to me today on 16/12/2010 thursday. from this morning, he didn;t replied even one of my text. i'm sorry. i just can't sleep last night. don't know why or what i just can't. 


i felt i'm just the person that excited being with you and you didn't. like last night i accident-ly found you at boulevard at the same time me and my siblings at the same placed. you just smile. you said you missed me. but looks like you didn't.


lastly, if you do loves me and if you do miss me. showed. and this particular song titled never alone i gave it to you. and for myself i'm enjoying this song. when you got a good thing. hoho

THE END

hot & dangerous

hot & dangerous 


the meaning of the title are i'm not desperate & i can live without you in my life. you are not worth to fight for. i'm young, i'm cute, i'm hot and also dangerous. why dangerous? because i dumped you or you dumped me, as if like i care. you are nothing to me. except you my husband then i care.


i'm a teenager. teenager that still having fun with her life. doesn't really need a guy that act like you do jerk. hoho. take or leave it honey. i'm sorry if anyone read this, might hurt your feeling. this is for specific person. only him. *tidak membibatkan orang yang hidup mahupun orang yang sudah meninggal dunia. haha


well. i've got the picture of you. but luckily i'm the good girl type. so, i won't upload. *ku nie mok antap bha. mesty bbunga ayat. hahaha


lastly i just need to say this shit to you. i so regret for being stupid falling in love with you on the 13th September. so thanks anyway. and i hope that no hard feeling between us. i'm so happy for you. like you use to say to me. tenang ajak. thanks fir the advice. i'm letting you go with a guy being next to me and a girl being next you. 


i thought i was the bad girl. well, antap banar eyh. you the bad boy sugar. accept it. i was trying to honest to you. i'm happy, i'm smiling and after you did this to me. i realize what for i being so so jealous because of you being with the girl. lantak lu la. haha, 


a poem describing you biatch.


inside you the devil, 
outside you the angle,
you make me sad,
i make your life miserable,
i'm young,
i'm not that desperate,
i'm not jealous,
because a guy like you are not worth it to fight.


describing me how i felt.


i'm mad,
i'm jealous,
i'll thought i need you,
i'll thought you were the one,
i'll thought you weren't the guy i use to know,
well, i guess i'm wrong babe.

you just the same exactly the same guy, the same altitude. you cursed him what he did to me. and fyi boy, you are the same. i'm happy with you and the girl. hope that she or you will not do the same mistake. 

THE END

observation & conclusion

observation - 13/09/2010 was not my fortunate day. i meet with you. i say i love you. and i'm being stupid because i dumped my boy just for you. and also you easily letting me go because you having someone. not me but you. 


i dumped him for you. and you easily letting me go and the next day you happy. right? do you even mean the words that you say to me. do you even felt that at that specific time my heart melt seeing you? do you believe when i say my words to you? do you even give your trust to me? hah?!?!?


conclusion - i'm a bitch or you s jerk? who worst? for me, i straight to the point. i'm used to play someone heart. but you. that's why my friends either my parents worried when i'm hook up with you. and yet i go on with our relationship. 


but did i get from you after i dumped you. you hook up with well-known girl that used to hook up with my friend. and yet you hook up with her i don't even know when. maybe you hook up with me at the time me and you hook up. i realize that you and her never separated even though she know that me being with you.


she text you longer than you texting me. why? i noticed she helped you every single time. don't you realize anything? jeez?!?! i'm feeling so so so stupid. i though me the one who played someone feeling. but you, outside you were the angle and me the devil. the bad one. you much much worser than me. 


outside you were the angle and inside you were the most hated unbelieve-able person. what for me is. i'm honest when say i love you. and also you will risk that i will played your heart. but you, you were hiding your real you inside that good boy thingy.

THE END

my feeling hurt

i love you. but did you noticed my love to you.


i hate you. but i just hate the way you treat me.


i love you. but did you ever trust me.


i hate you. but i just hate that you way you play jokes on me.


i love you. but did you ever believing in me no matter how far or where i am or whom i with?


i hate you. because sometimes you hurt my feeling.


it doesn't mean anything when i comes to words. 


it doesn't mean anything when i just act o came out from your mouth.


it doesn't mean anything whenever i look for you, you never there.


it  doesn't mean anything when you just said, but you never do anything.


it doesn't mean if i said my feeling is hurt.


you should have know my way.


you should have know the way i am.


you should have know what type of girl i am.


you should have known that your act hurt my feeling.


my tears, my shout, my anger, my soul, my every thing seems nothing to you.


i cried, i shout, i slap, i kick, i throw. it doesn't mean anything.


i hurt but you doesn't. why should i being fool by you love.


i'm young, i'm fresh, i'm a teenager. i've should have fun with my life.


not crying because you broke my heart. -,-

swim-mi-ming

a few days i've entered this swim-mi-ming class. LAUGH LA!! haha. i can't swim, i can't dance n can't fart in public. haha. so, this story about me, dba, wazif, farah and harith. well, technically farah n harith is my nephew n niece. 


about 10/12/2010 lesson, it so much mucha fun. i LOIKE it. it so so so fun. it's still early, so me n them jumped into the w-a-t-e-r. WHOAAA!! hawt. haha. the teacher use only underwear. the teacher is technically old man but really nice person teach me n them a swim lesson.


for me, i a bit more advance than my sistah, dba. even though she had same lesson with the same teacher when she's still in primary school. but, i'm a fast learner *sort of.  haha. only swim n outdoor stuff. the studies i a bit slow. hehe


well, i hate the time and the place. it's freaking crowded. and this chinese boy, he knows that placed that our teacher teach us swim-mi-ming, he also want to be there. ugh!! so annoying. no other place ka? i know i'm sexy, but move away boy. I'M TAKEN. haha. *ngegeh upa


well, i swim and swim and swim and swim. i over pass the children limit. hehe. i almost got to the deep side. i know i can't swim. show off bit loo. haha. swim swim swim, almost drowned because wanna show off. haha. *pande cover drik. haha. i'm so so ashamed. lucky for me, no one noticed. haha.


well, this story a bit short like my other story. so, it's about my swim-mi-ming lesson. for today, it's my third lesson. *mun dha terer leh juak ekot SUKMA. hahahaha (brangan skali skala bha) 

THE END

'great' day

having a great day. started my day with tears dropping down. started from a laugh then end with tears. 

hate being alone, hate being surrounded. hate being fool, hate being hurt. 

having friend nor special friend, must having ups and downs. 

fight fight, that we always do. if for you being my friend just to ashamed you, better i'm leaving you.

you hate me, i love you. we are family, like we said. but, one or two of us share the same opinion. 

you said stuff, i believe. you tell me this and that, i'll do. but why you hurt my feeling?

i'm useless, so ignore me. leave me alone. do not disturb me.

i had enough. enough having problems my own. enough fighting over stupid things.

you said you love me but we always fight.

you point your finger to me. blame me for anything. 

my silent doesn't mean i give up or i'm being a fool coz of word.

in front of you, you see i'm smiling you watch me laughing. deep into my heart, i'm begging you to love me for who i am.

for me, your are perfect. your are the cutest person i ever see. 

for you, who the heck i am to you?

i'm not perfect but i'm begging you. accepted for who i am. 

i hate you coz every single word you said i believe. sometimes it's funny. sometimes it don't

sometimes you make me cry, sometimes you make me smile. 

for now, I'M NOT THE PERSON THAT YOU FIRST MET. I'M NOT THE HAPPY ONE. 

THE END

a word from a friend ' TENANG AJAK '

I HATE THAT WORD!

it's not funny anymore. it hurts. i know what you mean, but, its not funny anymore dude. 

some times fun for you, but people says it's INSULTING.

different people, different voices, different thought. do not look at me like in your whole life, the person that you met is me. LEARN FROM YOUR MISTAKE because I'M LEARNING TO MAKE MY LIFE MORE MEANINGFUL.

it's not a good advice know? 

only sigh that i can do

only sigh. one sigh can describe how the sadness and frust taking over me. only one single sigh. only for those who known me very very well. one sigh can describe different meaning. 


as for me. even though i'm tired for camping or so what ever. tired? why should i feel so sleepy? even though tired why a girl like me wake up at 1 o'clock? why a girl like me should cry just for a small matter? why a girl like me sometimes she's not in a good mood? why a girl like me always says that i'm easy to get bored?


well, unfortunately i love camping. why? thats the time that people around me far away from me. why? i've got problem. why? like i said before, i live on earth not just to pleased you. but, every time i woke up, problem there  everywhere. 


sometimes i cried. sometimes i laugh. sometimes i laugh o smile, doesn't mean that i'm having a great day. but, to cut the story short. a smile means a thousands of meaning. smile, when you really wanna smile. but for me, a smile just to cover up that i'm having problem. 


i chill o i hang out, one or two of my friends always said the same thing ' pahal ko termenung?'


just a few days i'm reached home, there's the problem in front of my face. i hate fighting. it seems so stupid. i cried my tears won't change anything. i realize it. but, all i can do is cried. all i can do is let the tears drop. 


i hate my life. every time i woke up. there's problem. even though i'm trying to have fun, but problem follows me everywhere. 


ONLY A SIGH AND TEARS THAT ONLY THING THAT I CAN DO =,=

THE END

two days in nature

well, last two days. me, teera n apy went to the Borneo Rainforest for a club named PALS. it's about nature. first, i think it will kinda bored. but, what the heck. it's more fun than i stayed at home. :D


about 7 i went to Dewan Suarah to meet our teacher. my school and 3 other school which is SMK MERBAU, SMK LUAK & SMK PUJUT. they all friendly. i really having so much fun when being with them. eventhough we doesn't speak. but they different that i expected. 


first day in nature, about 3 different people doing a slide show that takes about 2 or 3 hours. they all talk about the same thing. the food. the first time i saw the food, i caught my eye on this particular chicken that is cook with dead leaf. hahaha. n also i heard this special name. PELIR KAMBING. it's actually a tree. haha


last, before we having dinner. all of us were expected to change our clothes because some of us will jump into the water for the demonstration if we gonna drown or something. well, me n my 2 other friends were the last group that jump into the water for the demonstration. fyi, I CAN'T SWIM. 


but, my friend said its only gonna be a memorable time on our live. so, i jumped. using a life jacket. haha. i jumped n my leg CAN'T feel the ground. it's so deep only the owner of the rainforest chalet. and i swim and only thing that i can think is 'don't get drown' haha. 




at night about 12.40 am, my teachers wake us up. don't know why. but at the time, me n room mates were still sleeping. and that particular time i'm using short pants n it's raining. no time to change, no time to washed our faces. the facy tell us ' TIME TO PLAY BURUNG HANTU '. but before that, she asked us, what usually came out at that moment. all we can think is ghost. 


each of us were given something to be tight around our eyes. after tight it, all of us can't see anything. beside hearing voices. me n my friends were seperated to different places. i don't know who beside me o what beside me. all i know is, we were sitting in a rain alone for about 30 minutes. :D 


second day, i was so tired bcause we all sleep at 1 am. and for me, a little bit late from everyone. hehe. we should wake up early because the facies said that we gonna see the waterfall. i wake up about 5.53 and the facies said by 6.30 am all of us must gathered downstairs. 


the journey took a bout 30 minutes. it's a lot of fun and i'm having headache. about 7 we arrived. and we go back to the hostel about 7.30. take a bath, chill n packed. went to the lobby to sent the bags n go downstairs for lunch. 


after lunch, group picture and the bus were late to pick us up. so, me n putry were doing some kind photoshoot i think with this teacher. i don't know his name. hehe. about 3 something pm we went back to Dewan Suarah. that's the time when our parents pick us up.


the journey to get to Miri town is so long. i even sleep in the bus. mayb i'm so so so so tired. about 4 pm we reach the DS. a few minutes later, my mom pick me up. and that's the story for the night in nature. :D

THE END 

today 4/12/2010

WHAT THE FUCKING DAY for me. haih -___________- fight fight. 


i say something to him and the meaning is so so deeply meaningful. i tears cannot drop anymore. hehe. the tears are finished after a few days crying like what. haha.


my father tell us something. he n my mom said ' mun mekorg jmpa anak ya, kluar KICAP anak ya. mekorg sggup tetak o bunoh anak ya. mekorg dha tua. mhabiskan masa d penjara pun no hal bha. nok kesan nya takorg. ' haih =.= 


i have no idea. what they say to us is the truth. the main fault is us. 


if it's not from us known the guy, it wouldn't be like this. 


how ashamed i am when the guy said bad things but me n my family. my heart crushed and never be healed. i know because this is the 2nd time the guy said something but me n my family. my heart still doesn't heal and this shit came into my face again. i cried no use. no tears can change that. only regret that i possible to do.


when my frens help me n my family, how ashamed i am to them. i just ashamed and it feels awkward when my frens help me that way. and my sayang n fathur. help me. i just say thanks to them. 


even though i never said to you guys this. I LOVE YOU GUYS SO SO MUCH. what we went for together is unforgettable. 


PIJIE N FATHUR. thanks sgat2. :)) for pijie, i love you. fathur, syang ajak sbg  MY BEST BIG BROTHER. :) hehe

my PICHA taken

still waiting for mom finished looking for something for her HUSBAND. hehe 

still waiting. the boredness is coming. :D

bok smpe umah. hehe. lam kol 8 something. :) 

this is me. i'm nur afiqah. i love my nose, my mom, my family, my ssc family, especially ALLAH. :D learn n forgive. I LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVEEEEEEEEEEEEEE MYSELF. 

♥THE END ♥

after additional mathematics exam finished

yesterday, my intensive tuition for add math finished. it finished by giving us exam. haih -_______- bingong bingong. hehe. 


we started exam about 8.45 and take a rest at about 12 something. haha. only GOD knows how hungry me that time. but, i'm just hush hush. shy and try to save money for the consert. luckily, i met my mom. she gave me some money. SAVE MY DUIT. haha. :P 


the balance. i take la. but already ask my mom permission. than, th day we finished the intensive add math. my mom don't know what or why, she take me, my sist, my younger brother n zul. my FAVOURITE cousin evah!! haha. :P


then, we went to the popular for magazine hunting. hehe. then, this country song caught my attention. wooaaa. i LIKE the song. but i have no idea what the song's title. besides the song. my eye caught to this young guy. he look so cute. haha. neyy. I'M TAKEN. :D


lastly, near starbucks got book store. they have the books that my father asked to buy. me, zul n my youngest brother buy drinks. hehee. berangan loaded. haha. ewah. lepak lua youu. haha.


ugh!! most hottest n funniest n happy day evah!!! when we in the popular. me n my sistah really wanna buy my mom something. we realize something that she lost her journal. so, i've got some money. and i spent it to buy my mom's new journal.


we gave her the new journal when me, my sistah n my mom only. she is so deeply TOUCHED. and as for me n my sistah as her children looking foward to see her face smiling and a bit embarassed. I LOVE MY MOM. 


only GOD knows how happy i am that day. :)


p/s  i really hate someone that really rude or ungrateful or insult my mom. if do, only GOD knows how deeply, really my hateness to those kind of STUPIDOS people. and i wish those people dead. :D


                                    -  THE END  -

sayang & ssc crews & others

first person get to knows a shit that happen to me. HAFIZI aka pijie. :D hehe. he knows from A to Z. he know everything. what the guy says to me. sort of. hehe. and his very very closed fren. fathur. thanks so so much for being there for me. :D 


second, my other family. ssc crews. :D thanks so so so so much guys. i love you guys. i'm sorry for making the messed. i hope my apologize were being accepted. hehe. 


to be continued...


i know who the real person hiding by the name of ' muhd faizal' :((

hard to forget

last few days, a had a really really really bad day. why? like last last night, me n my boyfy were sharing songs to each other. then, a notification pop out. a notification that ruined my happy mode. my life, my dignity. he said something really making me sad. it's about midnight, he said my nose like a pig. it's fine to me. cause i used to be insult by someone and i let them insult me as they want. but this ASSHOLE. making me super super super mad. why? i mention about my mom. 


WHAT THE FUCK HIS TALKING ABOUT!!!!!!!!!!!


I THINK HIS BALLS NOT BIG ENOUGH TO GET GIRLS ATTENTION. AND I THINK HE'S CRAZY.


HE THIS HE'S SO FUCKING PREFECT? WHY DON'T HE DIE EARLY AND BECOME A GOD O SOMETHING. HE THINK HE IS SO PERFECTLY PREFECT. 


FUCK YOU MUHD FAIZAL!!!!!!!


ugh!! emo kejap lam tok la ow. haha. :D


A SUITABLE HOW TO DESCRIBE A PEOPLE LIKE HIM. R-E-A-D-T-H-I-S-S-L-O-W-L-Y.


A JERK, ASSHOLE, COWARD, SELFISH, SNOB, THINK SO DEEPLY PERFECT, NOT SO HANDSOME, LOOK IN THE MIRROR NEXT TIME.


A GIRL LIKE ME WOULDN'T CHOOSE A GUY THAT THINK SO HANDSOME, IN BM 'GILA BAYANG'.